Jessi,

**Qualifier**  This is an encouragment.  If it sounds like anything else, pretend as though I am telling you and know my heart.

I know that God has a man out there for you.  I also remember that God has instructed you on looking to Him and he will lead you.  Maybe the man for you is in the next town you are to teach in.  Maybe he is in a different country...we don't know, but we DO KNOW that God is in control and your heart is to be just like Him.  Don't let that go!  The enemy is looking for any weakness that we have to use to get us off track.  You are on your way to where God wants you, don't let Satan deter you for any reason!  I know that you were only *venting*  but I want to encourage you in the fact that you heard and continue to hear God.  It doesn't matter if you fall, He is still your God.  He is still your Daddy.  He still loves you and is waiting for you to let Him rock you in His arms.  You heard Him tell you not to get ahead of Him, but let Him lead.  He has a man that He is preparing just for you, but you want him prepared!  Trust me, you don't want him without seasoning!  It is just not the same.  I know. 

Anyway, I just wanted to encourage you in the fact that God IS preparing both you and your future spouse.  Take heart in the fact that He promised and "He is not a man that He should lie!"  He is a faithful God!

Love ya, Susie